To cheer you

As a forsaken mother and grandmother for years I can truly say I know how you feel. 
Think on this.
In my case (your case is a little different. So just adjust these thoughts)...
I gave up a career to stay home and raise my precious babies.
The financial situation was tough. 
But I obeyed my God. 
I even had natural childbirths because I was so afraid of any drugs entering their little new bodies.
The births were difficult but the joy was so worth it.
I cooked as fabulous meals as I could with our budget. The garden helped. 
As parents we took them very faithfully to church. Our deepest desire was for them to know Christ.
We squeezed in as much family fun as we could. 
They should have memories of vacations, holidays, and picnics.
We read bedtime stories every single night it was possible. 
We loved, prayed and worried over them. 
When grandchildren came they were certainly my number one priority. 
Did I make mistakes? 
Of course. Many.
Did I ask God and my children for forgiveness? 
Of course. 
I know God forgave. 
But God does His best work at the end of our ropes. 
No matter what I know one day all will be perfect in eternity. 
I do not think that Jesus will scold me for my mistakes. 
Even now rest in hearing HIM say, " Well done, My good and faithful servant." 
Love, and comfort to you all today from Wonderbugg.