Glad I finally found you.
Aug 30, 2016 20:46:07 GMT
Post by warriornanny on Aug 30, 2016 20:46:07 GMT
I have to say, I haven't found this site to be very user friendly so far, but I am happy to have finally found the group again. I'm back because I still need all the love and support I can get and give.
For those who don't know or remember my story, I am 8.5 yrs into the estrangement with my children. It didn't happen gradually, it was all normal one day and over the next and I have no idea why. Four of my five children will not acknowledge me at all, and things are strained with the fifth child because of the estrangement with the other four.
I've cried aloud to God, I've stomped my feet and even screamed a few times. I guess, like most of you, I have had every conceivable emotion that estrangement brings, the unmerry merry-go-round.
My heart has been broken.
My Faith in God has been strengthened and shaken.
About 6weeks ago I became a grandmother again. It's funny, sometimes you can put this estrangement junk on a back burner and go on in life with a seemingly new normal. Then something always brings it back to the front and the hurt is renewed again and again. I have only seen pictures of her on facebook, this new tiny grandbaby. I sent flowers and a gift to the hospital, no acknowledgement. I found out from family that the baby is not well, has a chromosonal disorder and will have special needs. She was in NICU until just past the one month mark. Now she finally weighs 6pounds.
At the behest of well meaning family and friends, I tried to go to the hospital to give love and support but I was not welcome.
8.5yrs worth of pain and heartache moved right back into my heart and settled there again.
I'm hoping this makes sense, I am crying too hard to proofread it.
Has anyone learned how to get off of this rollercoaster?
Has anyone read books that were particularly helpful?
Also, I am trying to start a local support group-does anyone have any idea how to do this?
I could sure use some help, and some friends who understand.
For those who don't know or remember my story, I am 8.5 yrs into the estrangement with my children. It didn't happen gradually, it was all normal one day and over the next and I have no idea why. Four of my five children will not acknowledge me at all, and things are strained with the fifth child because of the estrangement with the other four.
I've cried aloud to God, I've stomped my feet and even screamed a few times. I guess, like most of you, I have had every conceivable emotion that estrangement brings, the unmerry merry-go-round.
My heart has been broken.
My Faith in God has been strengthened and shaken.
About 6weeks ago I became a grandmother again. It's funny, sometimes you can put this estrangement junk on a back burner and go on in life with a seemingly new normal. Then something always brings it back to the front and the hurt is renewed again and again. I have only seen pictures of her on facebook, this new tiny grandbaby. I sent flowers and a gift to the hospital, no acknowledgement. I found out from family that the baby is not well, has a chromosonal disorder and will have special needs. She was in NICU until just past the one month mark. Now she finally weighs 6pounds.
At the behest of well meaning family and friends, I tried to go to the hospital to give love and support but I was not welcome.
8.5yrs worth of pain and heartache moved right back into my heart and settled there again.
I'm hoping this makes sense, I am crying too hard to proofread it.
Has anyone learned how to get off of this rollercoaster?
Has anyone read books that were particularly helpful?
Also, I am trying to start a local support group-does anyone have any idea how to do this?
I could sure use some help, and some friends who understand.
