Post by JeepGirl on Oct 21, 2019 4:25:23 GMT
I shared in an earlier post how I said "Hi" to my estranged son at a recent high school football game of my dd's son and he acknowledged me. This past Saturday afternoon, my ES was at the stadium and sitting by himself. My ex-husband wasn't there yet. Since I now communicate with my granddaughter (estranged son's daughter), and her boyfriend is a football player in their town, I asked where she was and he replied, "With her boyfriend." My daughter's in-laws were sitting in that area so my husband and I sat on bleachers behind them and my ES. Once seated, my es and I talked briefly about the two schools' football teams and their losing seasons. When my ex arrived, I didn't talk to my son and I am sure my es appreciated that.
My ex left before the game was over and as we were walking out of stadium, my es son was behind us and I slowed down and my husband and I had small talk with him about game. And, that was that. I don't think my dd even realized we had spoken. Now what???
Since the last game, I didn't mention that I said "hi" to my es to anyone except my husband - not to my daughter, my dil, or grands. Don't know if my ES said anything. I am going to react the same way this time. No mention of our exchange to anyone. I have to admit, to my surprise, it was really good to talk to my es and I felt like the cloud had finally been lifted after all these years. We can say all we want about getting used to not having them in our lives and not even sure how we feel toward them anymore, but, as I always thought, the moment you speak to your estranged child, all the walls come down, and all the bad thoughts/feelings we had are gone. My thoughts were only in the moment. Honestly, I have no expectations. I may even be a little leery of anything more at this point in time. I am grateful to the Lord for the simple communication He afforded me with my es but I have no intention of sending text, e-mail or anything. I will continue to wait upon the Lord.
I know you understand about the cloud and I am sincerely praying for that cloud to be lifted from each of you and for the Son's light to break through. Sending prayers and love...