Hope!!!!

Thank you thank you for your prayers!!!!
Today I went into therapy session saying "God you are in charge. Whether it's yes or no, you are in charge!" 
So the chance came and I asked "What can I do to make it more comfortable for you to allow me to see the boys?" 
The therapist said " What a good question." 
Then my daughter said "Just keep doing what you are doing. That's why we are here." 
I asked "So you are saying there is hope?" 
She answered "Oh yes!" 
Well, I was thrilled. It's the most hope I've had in years.
She has agreed to visit the grandparents grave with me Sat. Something her dad won't do. 
She mentioned in therapy how much she missed her grandma. 
So, Ive never visited a grave with a heart full of joy. But this time I will! 
So many nights I've sobbed myself to sleep. Those were the lucky nights. When I could sleep. 
Tonight will be different.
God was there. He has been there the whole time. 
Today I didn't just feel His comfort. 
I felt His smile.