Need Advice
Jun 12, 2017 13:57:11 GMT
Post by wonderbugg on Jun 12, 2017 13:57:11 GMT
I have been meeting once a week with my ED almost every week for months now.
Its a lot of silly psychobabble.
"if your life is a pie how much is spiritual, how much is physical...etc"
And my ED saying what a cad her dad is etc. He's not perfect but no monster.
When I say I miss my grandsons with tears streaming down my face they just ignore me.
I'm no closer to knowing why I can't see my 3 grandsons than when we started. (I doubt they remember me.)
After every appointment we go shopping and have a wonderful time.
She answers all my emails.
This much is a dream come true.
I still cry myself to sleep missing my boys.
This morning I was studying 1 Peter 3 about seeking peace and pursuing it.
Would I be wrong to ask in a kind way at the next appointment " Am I moving any closer to seeing the boys? Is there anything I can do to make you feel more comfortable about letting me heal a relationship with them?"
If she says "No. You will never see the boys again."
Is it then time to say "I wish you and the boys nothing but love. Go in peace." Kiss her on the cheek then leave.
Or if she says yes then I will certainly continue doing all I can do.
I really don't know exactly what to do.
Or maybe I should leave well enough alone?
You are the ONLY ones to know the hell I go through daily.
But lately I feel like I am only being babysat to ease her conscience.
I don't feel good about needing a babysitter.
I want to please God.
Please help me think straight.
Its a lot of silly psychobabble.
"if your life is a pie how much is spiritual, how much is physical...etc"
And my ED saying what a cad her dad is etc. He's not perfect but no monster.
When I say I miss my grandsons with tears streaming down my face they just ignore me.
I'm no closer to knowing why I can't see my 3 grandsons than when we started. (I doubt they remember me.)
After every appointment we go shopping and have a wonderful time.
She answers all my emails.
This much is a dream come true.
I still cry myself to sleep missing my boys.
This morning I was studying 1 Peter 3 about seeking peace and pursuing it.
Would I be wrong to ask in a kind way at the next appointment " Am I moving any closer to seeing the boys? Is there anything I can do to make you feel more comfortable about letting me heal a relationship with them?"
If she says "No. You will never see the boys again."
Is it then time to say "I wish you and the boys nothing but love. Go in peace." Kiss her on the cheek then leave.
Or if she says yes then I will certainly continue doing all I can do.
I really don't know exactly what to do.
Or maybe I should leave well enough alone?
You are the ONLY ones to know the hell I go through daily.
But lately I feel like I am only being babysat to ease her conscience.
I don't feel good about needing a babysitter.
I want to please God.
Please help me think straight.