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Post by luke2231 on May 28, 2017 16:27:35 GMT
Although I'm making strides dealing with this constant, dull pain of estrangement, it seems like most Sundays, I just get so teary during the worship portion of the church service.
Sometimes it feels like the weight of my son walking away from us is getting heavier instead of lighter.
Lately too, our church has been having a time to meet and pray for& with strangers, and while the estrangement is the greatest need I have, I find it hard to share this with strangers.
I know, I know that my strength, shield, hope and comfort is in Jesus, but honestly, church often seems to make it harder. Does anyone else feel this way?
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Post by lindajoan on May 28, 2017 21:36:54 GMT
I sure do. It may have something to do with our focus and being in the quiet presence of the Lord during worship at church. There is a true reverence from us to God at that time. It brings many things in our lives to light and our EC are on our minds. We are often praying for them to be changed and for us to have the strength to persevere.
I have found select people at church to share with about our ed. Many knew her. I knew they would pray. It is good to share our burdens if we are bring led by the Spirit to do so. Some people will understand and keep you in prayer.
Saying a prayer for you today.
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Post by bettyshe on May 29, 2017 1:47:00 GMT
You are so right lindajoan about our focus and being in the quiet presence of the Lord bringing it all to our minds and hearts. Let us continue to pray for one another. Please all say a prayer for me.
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Post by lindajoan on May 29, 2017 3:48:37 GMT
Certainly will, Betty.
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Post by luke2231 on May 29, 2017 14:44:12 GMT
Thank you; it's good to know I'm not alone in this. What you say makes perfect sense lindajoan, and betty, I'm saying a prayer for you now too. Hugs and thanks.
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Post by byhisgracealone on May 29, 2017 17:49:39 GMT
Several years ago, my church went through an extensive renovation. We have a very large cross that hangs on the wall on one side of the platform. When the renovation first began, our senior Pastor informed us of the day the carpeting and pews would be removed from the entire sanctuary. He offered to allow anyone to come in and write scripture or prayer for someone anywhere on the floor before the new carpeting was installed. I absolutely came in that day, and went straight to the choir steps that were made of wood, and also had the carpeting removed from them. To the far right side (opposite of where our cross usually hung,)in heavy marker, I wrote Proverbs 22:6, "Raise a child up in the ways of the Lord, and when he is grown, he will not depart form them." "I know you love my daughter (her name) Lord, please forgive her."
To my surprise, the following sunday morning when I walked in to the church, our large cross was hung on the opposite side of the platform from where it had always been. It was now right above where I had written Proverbs 22:6 for my daughter on the choir steps. I cried. It was a beautiful gift from God, assuring me that He heard me. I can't tell you how it still warms my heart, and brings tears to my eyes, when I pray in church for my daughters salvation, and glance down below the cross to where I know God sees her name under the carpeting.
No luke, you are not alone. I cry also....and know that The Lord sees and hears each of us. I absolutely know.
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Post by luke2231 on May 29, 2017 18:31:06 GMT
Byhisgrace, thank you. This made me cry, because this is part of it EXACTLY. Our church moved into a new building and we dedicated two seats for our son and DIL, which we also wrote their names on the floor under the carpet and seats. Although we don't sit in them, I know precisely where they are, and I often find myself looking that way during worship with a hunger to see them there. You're right; God does see... their names and my tears. Praying for your daughter too... <3
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Post by lindajoan on May 30, 2017 2:31:05 GMT
That is a beautiful reminder, byhisgrace, God knew the place. The cross is the place of perfect love.
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Post by wonderbugg on Jun 12, 2017 13:58:50 GMT
I often feel embarrassed by my tears. I fight it every Sunday.
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Post by renatek8 on Jun 21, 2017 22:08:45 GMT
I will pray for you. You are not alone. I've got this going on everyday. It is like a dull ache. I feel like crying all the tine. I have an appt to see a doctor for a prescription. Take care Luke.
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Post by luke2231 on Jun 22, 2017 0:48:04 GMT
Thank you, Renate. It is a dull ache. That describes it perfectly; always there, just enough so that you're aware of it even if you try not to be.
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lisa
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This hurts so much! Definitely one of the hardest things our family has gone through!
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Post by lisa on Jul 7, 2017 4:13:05 GMT
Yes, I seem to get weepy on Sundays at church too. My children are always on my mind and I do have some very understanding people there that I'm so thankful for.
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Post by byhisgracealone on Jul 8, 2017 0:07:39 GMT
Welcome Lisa. Everyone here understands the challenging journey we've been asked to walk. We are all here to support and pray for one another. Please feel free to post whenever you need to, we know how much this hurts. Blessings...
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Post by lindajoan on Jul 8, 2017 16:30:02 GMT
Welcome Lisa, God bless you
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