Up in the middle of the night
May 2, 2017 5:21:39 GMT
Post by wonderbugg on May 2, 2017 5:21:39 GMT
I haven't been able to sleep.
What's been keeping me up?
Counseling with ED. How many weeks has it been?
And Im still not able to see my 3 grandsons. I still don't know why.
So she meets twice with the counselor alone.
Next time she tells about a bad thing a neighbor did to her.
She doesn't remember the details. Just that it was bad.
I know he was a very big pedophile.
He's in prison serving 15 yrs that are almost up.
Then he goes to another state to stand trial for another girl.(his family of wife and 5 beautiful children were moving state to state. My best friend was clueless. She thought it was his job)
Im glad he is locked away. But very very sad that this happened to my daughter.
When he was first arrested I asked her and her brother if he had touched them. They said no. But now she remembers it.
Her brother now remembers her crying. Even though he was young he knew this man did something bad? to her.
Then she tells me she has a very big bomb to drop on me but she's not ready.
What on earth? What could this mean???
How can I sleep wondering if my life will be utterly destroyed this week...if she decides to tell this week?
I'm dizzy and scared and sick.
And Im still not allowed to see my boys. Why do they have to be protected from me???
Am I getting blamed? Im totally innocent here.
My mother "looked the other way" in my case. But I haven't.
If anything ever happened in her past I certainly didnt know about it.
I'm sick and scared.
I once had a beautiful family. Now everythings twisted.
I sit in silence in the dark.
I feel like Im being prepared for the electric chair.
That's not very encouraging to anyone.
But there it is.
Right now I just want to keep from blowing away.
I get the feeling my life is about to be blown into a million pieces.
What's been keeping me up?
Counseling with ED. How many weeks has it been?
And Im still not able to see my 3 grandsons. I still don't know why.
So she meets twice with the counselor alone.
Next time she tells about a bad thing a neighbor did to her.
She doesn't remember the details. Just that it was bad.
I know he was a very big pedophile.
He's in prison serving 15 yrs that are almost up.
Then he goes to another state to stand trial for another girl.(his family of wife and 5 beautiful children were moving state to state. My best friend was clueless. She thought it was his job)
Im glad he is locked away. But very very sad that this happened to my daughter.
When he was first arrested I asked her and her brother if he had touched them. They said no. But now she remembers it.
Her brother now remembers her crying. Even though he was young he knew this man did something bad? to her.
Then she tells me she has a very big bomb to drop on me but she's not ready.
What on earth? What could this mean???
How can I sleep wondering if my life will be utterly destroyed this week...if she decides to tell this week?
I'm dizzy and scared and sick.
And Im still not allowed to see my boys. Why do they have to be protected from me???
Am I getting blamed? Im totally innocent here.
My mother "looked the other way" in my case. But I haven't.
If anything ever happened in her past I certainly didnt know about it.
I'm sick and scared.
I once had a beautiful family. Now everythings twisted.
I sit in silence in the dark.
I feel like Im being prepared for the electric chair.
That's not very encouraging to anyone.
But there it is.
Right now I just want to keep from blowing away.
I get the feeling my life is about to be blown into a million pieces.
