Post by JeepGirl on Feb 27, 2019 2:34:15 GMT
Hi Everyone, Just wanted to come by and share a couple of things which have changed in my life. I am continuing to see my ES's kids. They have been over my house a couple of times and visits have been good. I also sub more for my granddaughter and she will visit my class and usually comes by during lunch. I always make sure to bake cookies or bring a treat for her. My dil has texted me several times, asking me about my health, and talking about my grands. My ES still doesn't talk to me and I really don't bring him up to my grands or dil. If my grands bring up their dad, I am careful to only talk about him in a positive way or, in some cases, just remain quiet. I don't want them to feel uncomfortable in any way. I thank the Lord each time I see them and appreciate the gift (miracle) He has given me. I have accepted where I am with my son and believe, in time, we will reconcile. But the ball is totally in his court. Absolutely nothing I can do, except just love his kids. My estrangement has been going on for years but I always trusted in Him. Never sure what the outcome would be but always knew He is faithful and that reconciliation would be in His time.
The reason I have not been here in a while is because on January 31st I had a lumpectomy. No breast cancer in my family history. I am so grateful to the Lord that it was removed and doctor says she removed all the cancer and the pathology report indicated that it had not gone to the lymph nodes. Soon, I will begin radiation (preventative) and "possibly" take a hormone pill for 5 years which I am still not sure about. But, truly taking one step at a time. Like here, I even found a Christian forum for cancer survivors.
I have done so much research since my diagnosis and everything I read, including what my surgeon and oncologist told me is that Stress is a major factor in cancer. I truly believe, my 10 years of estrangement and all the heartache, tears and emotions played a big part in this. Those of us who have been on this journey for some time, definitely know how we have been affected mentally and physically from our estrangements. I have begun a huge turn around, including nutrition, exercise, but even more importantly, I am tossing the stress, with the Lord's help, of course. It doesn't come easy but I started with little things and find many things that used to stress me out in the past, do not any longer. I look at things differently, and ask myself, "Seriously, is this worth getting upset about?" And it has to be applied to our estrangements. I know it is so much harder when the estrangement is new but, even then, please think about your future health. If you haven't seen your grands, don't you want to be around when God restores your relationship? I am not a physician but check out what stress does to our systems and how different cells and organs are affected. And lastly, please go for your check-ups. I waited six years since my last mammo and that was foolish. I thank the Lord that my situation wasn't worse. Love going out to each of you along with lots of prayers...