Post by newcreationinchrist on Dec 18, 2017 17:23:45 GMT
Hi all, I'm new to this site. I am a 45 yr old mom, with a young adult estranged daughter, 2 years now. I will give some background to my story- I myself was an estranged daughter. My parents and sister are, and have always been, strong followers of Jesus. I was disconnected, rebellious and angry from age 11 and eventually estranged as an adult. I blamed everything on my difficult relationship with my mom- my choices, my actions, my attitude, my lifestyle. I was a broken individual who created confusion and fear, and inflicted much emotional pain on my parents and my sister. I was living a life of danger, lies and shame. My family tried everything, every different approach possible, but nothing worked and eventually they were left guarded and in protective mode. My mom even had a prayer board with my name always on it, which made me so furious anytime I saw it that I would erase my name and lash out with insults. I was constantly pushing my family away, keeping everyone at arms length, rejecting and running from my family and ultimately rejecting and running from the Lord. I was afraid that if I let anyone in, they would see my shame and who I truly was, and the lies of the enemy would be confirmed- that I was not worth loving. This was especially true with the Lord more than any one. I thought there probably was a God, but if there was, I was certain I was not worth loving.
All of that changed at the age of 41, in the blink of an eye, I was radically saved and set free from my bondage to sin, redeemed and transformed, my life did a complete 180° turn, I was made a new creation in Christ! My relationship with my family was fully restored to better than it ever was. We now have a strong, safe, loving relationship with Jesus Christ as the foundation and we thank Him daily for His faithfulness and abounding love. He is good!!!
My transformation was difficult for my daughter, to say the least. For the past 2 years, she has been estranged from me. I love her so very, very much and tears are always right below the surface. One day, I was having an all day long crying and grieving session, my heart felt as if it was literally breaking. I was laying on the floor sobbing, when the Lord in His beautiful, compassionate, Fatherly way, showed me that He understood how I felt. He showed me that the grief I felt over my daughter rejecting me, is just a sliver of how He felt while I was rejecting Him! He showed me that even while I was rejecting Him, He was still there, waiting for me to turn back towards Him, to welcome me with open arms. He showed me that ultimately my daughter is rejecting Him, our Heavenly Father. He showed me that I can trust and have faith in Him, that He has His hand on my daughter and He is forming her testimony, that He will save and redeem her as well as restore our relationship. He will do it in His timing and His way, which is always perfect and glorifies Him. He showed me that He will do this, He is doing this, because as much as I love my daughter and grieve the relationship, He loves her and grieves her even more than I do or ever possibly could. He showed me I need to place her in His hands and watch what He can and will do. This revelation from the Lord was profound. I experienced on an even greater level His grace and His love for me, for all of us, and how His heart grieves and longs for us, that He never ever leaves us, it is us who leave Him. When we are far from Him, it is evident in all other relationships as well.
My parents had to wait until I was 41, I may have to wait that long or even longer. My parents almost gave up all hope, but they never stopped praying. The Lord hears our prayers. Don't stop praying, cry out to the Lord and thank Him- thank Him for His timing and His ways, He is still working miracles today just as He always has and always will. When the pain and grief feels unbearable, turn your eyes towards the Lord and His promises, and turn your heart towards the Lord, He's right there waiting to comfort you, His precious child. ♡♡♡
All of that changed at the age of 41, in the blink of an eye, I was radically saved and set free from my bondage to sin, redeemed and transformed, my life did a complete 180° turn, I was made a new creation in Christ! My relationship with my family was fully restored to better than it ever was. We now have a strong, safe, loving relationship with Jesus Christ as the foundation and we thank Him daily for His faithfulness and abounding love. He is good!!!
My transformation was difficult for my daughter, to say the least. For the past 2 years, she has been estranged from me. I love her so very, very much and tears are always right below the surface. One day, I was having an all day long crying and grieving session, my heart felt as if it was literally breaking. I was laying on the floor sobbing, when the Lord in His beautiful, compassionate, Fatherly way, showed me that He understood how I felt. He showed me that the grief I felt over my daughter rejecting me, is just a sliver of how He felt while I was rejecting Him! He showed me that even while I was rejecting Him, He was still there, waiting for me to turn back towards Him, to welcome me with open arms. He showed me that ultimately my daughter is rejecting Him, our Heavenly Father. He showed me that I can trust and have faith in Him, that He has His hand on my daughter and He is forming her testimony, that He will save and redeem her as well as restore our relationship. He will do it in His timing and His way, which is always perfect and glorifies Him. He showed me that He will do this, He is doing this, because as much as I love my daughter and grieve the relationship, He loves her and grieves her even more than I do or ever possibly could. He showed me I need to place her in His hands and watch what He can and will do. This revelation from the Lord was profound. I experienced on an even greater level His grace and His love for me, for all of us, and how His heart grieves and longs for us, that He never ever leaves us, it is us who leave Him. When we are far from Him, it is evident in all other relationships as well.
My parents had to wait until I was 41, I may have to wait that long or even longer. My parents almost gave up all hope, but they never stopped praying. The Lord hears our prayers. Don't stop praying, cry out to the Lord and thank Him- thank Him for His timing and His ways, He is still working miracles today just as He always has and always will. When the pain and grief feels unbearable, turn your eyes towards the Lord and His promises, and turn your heart towards the Lord, He's right there waiting to comfort you, His precious child. ♡♡♡