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Post by renate9 on Nov 3, 2017 22:27:56 GMT
A catalog came from a store in town today. It was listing all the pretty things one could buy for Christmas. I made the observation that I don't want stuff. All I want is my daughter and granddaughter back in my life. I could live in a shack on the Rio Grande if I had them back. That is all I want in life.
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Post by luke2231 on Nov 3, 2017 23:44:01 GMT
Renate,
I'm so so sorry that you are in such pain. I think we all feel that we would rather have our children back even if it meant we would be poor as church mice forever. Relationships definitely matter so much more than material goods. As pitiful as it sounds, I'm praying for you, as well as the rest of us. Like you, I don't understand the "why" of my estrangement, and I would fix it if I could. Unfortunately, I've done everything I could, but it's still not enough. And I will never be able to fix my son's heart, but God can. I know you know that God can heal the deepest wounds, but He also wants you to rest in that understanding.
May I ask if something has happened beyond the catalog to be so sad? Is it just the holidays in general? If so, is there someone else you could bless somehow during the holiday season, in honor of your daughter? Sometimes the smallest acts of kindness can be the thing to get us out the pit of despair.
Please keep coming back here and sharing. It really does help to have others surrounding your and lifting you up.
Hugs!
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Post by renate9 on Nov 4, 2017 0:58:21 GMT
It's just the holidays. It is so frustrating to not have her in my life.
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Post by lindajoan on Nov 5, 2017 0:21:10 GMT
We do understand. Keeping you in prayer.
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Post by luke2231 on Nov 5, 2017 19:51:25 GMT
As Lindajoan says, we do understand. Many of us make some kind of plan ahead of time in order to occupy our thoughts during what should be a wonderful, loving family time. Sending prayers your way...  |
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Post by JeepGirl on Nov 6, 2017 1:20:22 GMT
Renate9, I don't think there is one member on this site who would disagree with you about what is really important in life. It certainly is not "things", it is our estranged sons and daughters and grands that are most important. Sadly, we can control "things"...things we want and things we don't want. But we cannot control our estranged adult children.
Even when we attempt reconciliation, we are usually faced with more abuse or no response at all. We are at the mercy of our ec. So, what do we do? We cannot help but shed tears and cry out to the Lord in prayer, begging for reconciliation. He does hear our pleas, and He knows our pain, but it will happen in His time and in His way. Until then, we cannot allow ourselves to be destroyed physically and mentally by our estrangements. Those of us who have been in estrangement for some time, can testify that we have been affected in so many ways, including our health.
Renate9, I pray you don't stay in this place too long. As Luke said, keep coming here, know it is a safe place and that we do understand. Praying for you to feel God's loving presence and especially His strength and wisdom so you can continue moving forward. A big virtual HUG being sent your way. |
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