It still seems like a dream!!!!

I saw my 3 grandsons, my daughter and her husband yesterday. My husband was there too!!! 
We met in therapy. Both men took the day off work. 
My grandsons looked so different. 
I still think my heart will bust with joy.
We spent the day walking a mall together. 
We are making plans for future birthday party. 
We gave up Christmas and all holidays because they stress our daughter out. 
Small sacrifice. 
I have them back and I'm never letting them go.
5 long years of utter sadness. 
I've felt completely hopeless more times than I could count. 
Never give up. We still don't know why this happened. 
Who cares? Why is a victim question.
I no longer need to know why. 
Some good things have come from all of this. 
I'm sure of my Heavenly Father's love for me.
That happened long before they came back.
I love them but no longer idolize them. 
My identity no longer depends on what others do or don't do.
And I went from being overly sensitive to being kinda bullet proof.
What I mean by that is that I hear all the pettiness around me.
Mostly at church because those are my main contacts.
I think "Good grief. You are crying because of what so and so said about you?" 
I have a lot bigger fish to fry now. Life is way too short. Thank you a million times for all your prayers!!!! I will keep praying for you.